Category: Writers Block
Taking stock of my life, doing a bit of a reality check and finding broken areas in my life that are liken to a bone broken that was never properly set to only later find that needs give way to the re-breaking of the bone in order for mending a right to take place... in the hopes that useful service will prevail... and realizing too that a mending a right may never fully come to be. So too from these broken areas that time had given to me to think a mending and yet... it just wasn’t right for rather a glossing over of sorts... a rebreaking is now taking place (within)... Does it hurt?? I think perhaps more so the second time around for the first time the pain was numbed by the brain taking a control of its own... This time no numbness but rather a reliving the areas of brokenness and in some respects feeling the brokeness for a first time and knowing that a cost has been paid................and so the broken areas that weren’t dealt with properly are now confronted and purposefully not masked over... These areas that have been rebroken to be faced head on without relievers of pain for in coming to gripes there is a need to feel the pain.... to know that at another time when a brokenness comes... to deal right away with the situation at hand, not allowing for a glossing over, rather confronting and making right the wrong... well, at least making a true attempt... In the hopes of achieving a healing... And so with broken areas in my Life, way more than I want to admit, I realize I must, for if healing a new is to come it must come from within... if I want future relationships and persoanl growth to be at its upmost, then I must realize that it is never too late to be broken in order to become better.... But not to be broken for the sake of being broken and in turn pity receive and somehow getting into a situation of simply experiencing hurt to hurt again and again without the learning/without the healing. NO! rather broken to become better, to find health. Thank Goodness for those who are enabled to break the bones, as it were, the ones that never mended correctly, for that one is a healer in his own right and one certainly from time to time who is found to be unpopular in his profession for at the time of the actual rebreaking the pain is certainly not desired...............